Thursday, January 15, 2009

Another thought...

Maybe if I start posting what I eat, I'll be more accountable.

So starting tomorrow, I'm going to do just that. Actually, that's really how this blog got started - my best friend Lori and I were both trying to lose weight, and we started blogs as sort of online food diaries to let each other know what we were eating and how we were doing. So I guess I'm kind of going back to my roots. LOL

A couple of weeks in

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. Or should I say, it was the best of intentions, and it was the worst of times. LOL

Yeah, not going too well for me at the moment. I just can't seem to pick up any momentum. I'm doing the same thing I've done in the past - breakfast starts out really well, lunch is okay, the rest of the work day is fine, then dinner and the evening happens...and I start snacking.

It's not how much I eat, it's what I eat. I mean, I have a container of plain low-fat yogurt in the fridge and frozen berries in the freezer so I could make a really yummy parfait, but instead I grab the mini Hershey bars or the Jelly Bellys. And the thing is, I'd really much rather have the yogurt. Why do I not take the time to do that for myself?

I crave comfort foods. Yogurt is not a comfort food, at least not for me. Chocolate is a comfort food. I watched Oprah's web cast with Bob Greene on Monday night and they said usually if you're an emotional eater (which I know I am) it's because something is lacking in your life. Well, it doesn't take a genius to figure out what's lacking in my life - love.

True confession time here - I have never been in love. I've been in lust, and I've been in like, but I've never been in love. I mean, I have a family and friends that love me, but I'm talking about the kind of love between a woman and a man. Friends and family just aren't a subsitute for that. So I try to fill the void with comfort foods - creamy, rich, mostly chocolatey, gooey foods that some people may say are better than sex.

Oprah and Bob also had you draw a circle and divide it into pie-pieces, with each representing an area of your life - family, work, relationships, etc. Then you had to put a + or a - in each pie piece, depending on whether that area was currently working for you. Mine were all negatives. *sigh* No wonder I can't lose weight!

So, what I need to do is find something to take the place of those comfort foods that I tend to reach for. What I should do is exercise, but sometimes when a chocolate craving hits at 10:45 and I'm going to bed at 11, it just isn't practical.

I think I'll go make a yogurt parfait...:)